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Her parents found her a therapist, and while that therapist worked on ClaireвЂ™s depression and anxiety-she was waking up several times a night to make sure her alarm clock was set correctly-she didnвЂ™t feel qualified to help her patient with gender dysphoria. They were concerned that what their daughter had self-diagnosed as dysphoria was simply the travails of puberty.ДЄs Claire passed into her teen years, she continued to struggle with mental-health problems.

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Her childhood had been free of gender dysphoria-the clinical term for experiencing a powerful sense of disconnection from your assigned sex. To ClaireвЂ™s parents, her anguish seemed to come out of nowhere. вЂњWe let her completely explore this on her own,вЂќ Heather told me. But they stopped short of encouraging her to transition. They told Claire that they loved and supported her they thanked her for telling them what she was feeling. This began what Heather recalls as a complicated time in her and her husbandвЂ™s relationship with their daughter. She explained to him that she thought she was a boy. But one day in August 2016, Mike asked her why sheвЂ™d seemed so sad lately. She looked into ways to make her voice sound deeper and into binders to hide her breasts. Claire initially kept her feelings from her parents, researching steps she could take toward transitioning that wouldnвЂ™t require medical interventions, or her parentsвЂ™ approval. In ClaireвЂ™s mind, the plan was concrete, though neither Heather nor her husband, Mike, knew about any of it.

вЂњI thought that that was what made you feel better,вЂќ she told me. In ClaireвЂ™s case, the first step would be gaining access to drugs that would halt puberty next, she would start taking testosterone to develop male secondary sex characteristics. вЂњI just wanted to stop feeling bad, so I was like, I should just transition,вЂќ she said. вЂњ Maybe the reason IвЂ™m uncomfortable with my body is IвЂ™m supposed to be a guy,вЂќ she thought at the time.Д¬laire found in MilesChronicles and similar YouTube videos a clear solution to her unhappiness. She began to wonder whether she was transgender, meaning her internal gender identity didnвЂ™t match the sex she had been assigned at birth.

Claire had discovered the videos by accident, or rather by algorithm: TheyвЂ™d showed up in her вЂњrecommendedвЂќ stream.

His 1 million subscribers have followed along as he came out as a trans boy, went on testosterone, got a double mastectomy, and transformed into a happy, healthy young man. She was particularly fascinated by MilesChronicles, the channel of Miles McKenna, a charismatic 22-year-old. вЂњAt first, I started eating less,вЂќ she said, вЂњbut that didnвЂ™t really help.вЂќДЄround this time, Claire started watching YouTube videos made by transgender young people. She acknowledged that part of it had to do with puberty, but she felt it was more than the usual preteen woes. вЂњI thought there was something wrong with me.вЂќ Claire, who was 12 at the time, also felt uncomfortable in her body in a way she couldnвЂ™t quite describe. вЂњI didnвЂ™t have any self-confidence at all,вЂќ she told me. SheвЂ™d struggled to make friends and experienced both anxiety and depression.

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